Thursday, November 16, 2006

Sad day

Those of you that are not animal lovers won't understand this post but those of you that have ever had a special 4 legged friend will totally get this. Today at 4 pm we have to have our Tucker put to sleep. It is time. Time for him, not us. If it were up to us we would keep him around till he couldn't move but actually we are almost there. He has had a better life than many of the humans in this crazy world. It is just so hard to play God. I don't like deciding when life is over. I talked to a couple vets and they assured me that a quiet death while Tucker was sleeping in his own bed would be very rare so we have to take charge. I did extensive internet research about what I could give him before bed one night that would ease him to the "other side"..I couldn't find anything that would work for certain and most things could cause pain or distress, so off we go to the dreaded trip to the vet. There will be a hole in my heart. I have made everyone promise they won't get me a surprise puppy for Christmas, I couldn't take that right now. But, putting it all in perspective, reading all the posts of the horrible trials of infertility and loss that many of you (and I) have had this is a small blip on the radar, but it is my radar and it's gonna suck for awhile.

6 comments:

lola said...

I am so sorry. Having been there myself I know how heartbreaking it is to have to make that decision, but take some comfort in that you will give Tucker the peace that he needs. He knows that he is loved.

I will be thinking of you and your beloved dog.
{{hugs}}

One Mother's Journey said...

Oh I am SO SO sorry!! You're making a very unselfish decision and I know that Tucker appreciates that. I'm sure he's had a wonderful life and wouldn't want you to suffer anymore in this choice.

I wish you all peace.

My Reality said...

My heart breaks for you. It has been 2 months since we were in the same situation and it sucks. I wish our animals could live forever, or at least as long as we do. I am so sorry. I know that the next few days will be rough.
Tucker is a lucky boy to have such a loving mom.

serenity said...

I am so very sorry... putting down an animal is one of the hardest decisions you'll ever have to make.

I am crying for you right now. He I'm sure knows how much you love him. You're doing the most humane thing for him.

*hug*

Btw, I don't comment here often, but thank you very much for your comments on my posts. As we progress further in our decisions on adoption, I will be sure to email/post questions to you, Ohn. Thanks so much for sharing your story and views with me. I appreciate it very much.

steph said...

I have also been there and it is so so sad. We were lucky enough to have a vet willing to come to our home so he did kinda go to sleep in his own bed. I wish people were as thoughtful with other people, knowing when it's time.
Remember all the happy times and that you were a better person having had such a wonderful boy~

Beagle said...

So sorry for your loss. Have been there also.